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How I overcame sadness and suicidal thoughts p.2

You're back! That means you either loved the first one or you loved the first one! Lol. Either way I'm glad you're back and I sincerely thank you for reading my posts. So, if you are here and haven't read part I, stop and do that now. If you have... let's go. Now please understand that I'm only sharing my story. I'm not giving any advice or stating to ignore any medical competence that God has graced us with. Suicide and depression is very real and if you're experiencing it please seek the help you need to become a better you. ----------------------------- I've learned that the way I needed to find my identity and purpose was to seek the one...

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How I overcame sadness and suicidal thoughts p.2

You're back! That means you either loved the first one or you loved the first one! Lol. Either way I'm glad you're back and I sincerely thank you for reading my posts. So, if you are here and haven't read part I, stop and do that now. If you have... let's go. Now please understand that I'm only sharing my story. I'm not giving any advice or stating to ignore any medical competence that God has graced us with. Suicide and depression is very real and if you're experiencing it please seek the help you need to become a better you. ----------------------------- I've learned that the way I needed to find my identity and purpose was to seek the one...

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How I overcame sadness and suicidal thoughts p.1

Before you began reading the rest of this, think about why you're reading this. Do you really want to overcome depression, sadness, bitterness, anger, suicidal thoughts, etc.? Because for some reason we want change, but we don't want to change. Change requires change. I was willing to change. Everything I did wasn't working. I've tried drinking, smoking, sex, partying, etc. I've tried to be who everyone else assumed I should be, which is to be identical to everyone else. I was tired of being unhappy and feeling worthless. I started to feel like a walking zombie. As if my existence wasn't needed. I stopped acting as the victim. Yes, I lost my mother. Yes, my whole life changed. Yes, I've...

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Falling in love with ..

I wasn't always quick to cry my makeup off. If anyone has any knowledge of me, they're aware that I have a passion for makeup, therefore crying it off, isn't my first option.  I wasn't always quick to block out the entire audience and lay flat on my face crying to God with no shame whatsoever.  I wasn't always quick to lift up my hands even when a crowd of people are lifting theirs. I wasn't always quick to show off my love for Jesus or to even  mention his name to others.  I wasn't always quick to be the first to volunteer to pray. In fact, I'll be honest. I was quick to think about what others would think...

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Work On God's Work...

A few days ago, I looked back on how far I've come. Not just in age, but how much more wisdom God has allowed me to gain and how much my faith has grown. I continue to be amazed by how God works. I can't figure him out, but yet and still I know I will never be able to. I mean, this is my father who handpicked me. This is my father who comforts me and lifts me up when I feel I can't go any further. Although I know how amazing God is, I still have my days when I'm asking God if he has forgotten about me.. A few weeks ago I felt so stuck in everything...

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